Wednesday, 28 January 2015

4th letter

ALL SHADES OF INFINITY





1 st letter see here:
http://iralene.blogspot.ca/2014/10/first-letter.html

2nd letter :
http://iralene.blogspot.ca/2015/01/2nd-letter.html


4th letter


"Dear Mitjagh!



             I am writing you this fourth letter and I do not even know if you will ever get it - tomorrow they will destroy the charging batteries for all the Net ( I know for sure).  I am writing you 
 to share my feelings and let you know what is happening inside me.

            I feel furious that you brought me so much pain, humiliating me undeservedly, showing the darkest ingratitude, the most dirty trick , vile filth which only a man could demonstrate to a woman in response to her love and carefor him... I am so upset because of your decision of treating me no other but soulless body and by that means to raise up yourself in your own opinion and your relationship with that girl from the Net.

            I am angry that you consider me being silly and dream about yourself too much just to comfort yourself with your weaknesses and desires. I am furious that you used me to assert yourself...

            I am in pain. All I feel - is plain pain, because I let myself to happen that all. I saw from the beginning what you really were,  but nevertheless gave you chance and now I am so disappointed in you. You not only couldn't appreciate that but spit it back into my face as something shameful and dirty, and I am disappointed in myself that overestimated  both you and my strength.

         

Shy'm - La Malice [Clip Officiel]

Wednesday, 21 January 2015

2nd letter

ALL SHADES OF INFINITY





1 st letter see here:
http://iralene.blogspot.ca/2014/10/first-letter.html

2nd letter

(Persep City archive records)


"Dear Mitjagh!



             I am writing you this letter to share my feelings and let you know, what is happening inside me.          I am still deeply sad and upset beyond expression. My feelings of sadness are caused by your treatment of me, lying to me - you lied even when I asked if there is any other lie besides the death of you mother? - and you said to me "No", and you were already in relationship with Sheila... You lied, lied so meaninglessly and shamelessly, and I trusted you so much!

         I am in pain that you neglected me, neglected my friendship and at the end of the day even neglected intimacy... Who hired you to step on my heart?!!

        Why the hell did you even  show up on Monday after all? And pretended to be my "friend"?
        I feel pain that you chose Sheila from the net above me, and give her (digital) image higher value than me, who is real and alive. A girl with lying eyes and fake heart you value higher than my kind heart and honest words.

       I still feel pain like it's  hitting me, and my breath is braking down, like I am acting on a stage, so unnatural they are. I feel unsure and uncertain still...
   

       I am afraid to forgive you, because I was afraid to let weakness of my heart take over my mind and call you as to my friend, and you could use me again  not possibly be my friend! Friends do not do such things, what a pig!
       I regret that I could not find the right answer  when you were messing with my head  around and pushed my feelings. I regret that I treated you as a peer one not as the "younger" one. I regret that instead of leaving you with only the status of my "sex-toy"  I raised you to the privileges of my friend...  And you are no friend to me, what a dog!